Earlier today, I am very sad to write, I became aware that a former coworker of mine passed away over the weekend. She was truly a very special woman, who was fun and spunky and just a joy to be around. She made me feel comfortable from the moment I first met her; not an easy feat considering my shyness often gets in the way. She was easygoing and caring, someone I could talk and laugh with during those long, uneventful shifts at work. Though I hadn't seen her since last summer, I wondered how she was often and just recently thought about adding her to our growing list of wedding invitees. Sadly, that won't come to pass as she was taken far too soon and my heart just breaks for her family, especially her young son. All of this pointless tragedy got me to thinking. About my own life. About those closest to me, whom I can't even bare to imagine losing. About how quickly the tide can turn and a life can be over. While I've been worrying so much about all the little wedding details that have yet to be finalized and fretting over reaching an unattainable perfection for our big day...I believe I may have missed the point. What really matters is that our wedding is a celebration of life, of two lives (mine and his) wanting to be spent together and not about how perfectly everything falls into place. So, I'm going to take a breath, put a smile on my face and let the cards fall where they may. And tonight, I will hug those around me extra tight and cherish the fact that I still can.
KG, you will be dearly missed and this little post is dedicated to you.