Friday, April 13, 2012

Ugh.

I am so sick of this. Sick and tired of saying I'm going to get my butt into shape, blogging about it, writing numerous posts on how I plan on getting fit and staying fit; then instead of actually doing it, sitting on said butt and basically DOING NOTHING about it while eating a giant teriyaki chicken burger WITH onion rings from Bob's (I blame my husband for that one).  It's maddening; my medulla oblongata is reeling with annoyance at my lazy self. Who uses medulla oblongata in a sentence? Just read the Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy and you'll find out; but that's another blog post altogether. I'm like a sloth and not in the cute, cuddly, if-I-can-just-have-one-as-a-pet-my-life-will-be-complete kind of way.  No. I'm the Webster's Dictionary definition. Sloth: habitual disinclination to exertion; indolence; laziness. Yes, that sounds about right.  I've been averaging a workout of 1 day a week. The only word to describe that is pathetic, miserably and comtemptibly inadequateThe truth is, I absolutely hate working out. Hate: to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest.  Yup, that about sums it up.  Ugh. If anyone has any tips for me on this subject, I will worship the ground you walk on.  Okay, no, I won't, but I'll write you a very nice thank you note. As much as I want to lose the weight, I just can't seem to find the motivation to get out there and do the work.  Maybe it's because I don't have much weight to lose, I don't know. But I know this. I want to look like this again...
This is me. Many moons and teriyaki chicken burgers ago. I've been telling myself for years that I don't want to be as thin as I was as a teenager, I was just a kid, yada yada. And I KNOW I'll get some comments about this that I'm right to think that. But the truth is, I was in really great shape! The end. Why can't I be there again? Seems like just a good excuse for laziness and I'm over it.  Now, if only I could get over the teriyaki chicken burger eating habit, we would not be having this conversation. 

But I will continue to fight the good fight. Fight: a battle or combat. Any contest or struggle.

Indeed. 


4 comments:

  1. Ohhhh Jamie!
    You are fantastic, not a sloth! Remember that eating healthy and exercising is loving yourself and you are worth loving! From what I hear it is hard to lose those last pounds...but you can do it. I believe in you. Ya know what is really helping me these days...not that I'm an expert or anything...but...it works to have people to help you be accountable. Workout with friends, who expect you to be there, friends you don't want to let down. Make sure you are not following the ALL or NOTHING philosophy! That will have you failing FAST! It's all about balance. How about a teriyaki chicken burger with a salad w/olive oil & vinegar dressing. Try working out 3 times a week. Small steps to creating balance and achieving health (not always the perfect # on the scale)! At least you don't have another 50 to lose, like I do. :) You can do this girly, it is extremely frustrating, I get that...I REALLY get that but you can do it. If I can do it, you sure as heck can! What healthy choice are you going to make this week? Choose one or two & do it! I'm in your corner, cheering you on! xo.

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  2. Oh, thank you Miss Katie!!! You are beyond sweet. :) I've been so inspired by your journey! And congratulations on actually having the gumption to get out there and make it happen! I agree with you, it is frustrating. And I believe you are entirely correct that having friends to hold me accountable to workout is the best option. I wish I could hold myself accountable, but I'm not there just yet. I truly appreciate the encouraging words...they do wonders for my motivation!!! Thank you. xoxo

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  3. Every day is a new chance for change.

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  4. This summer - lots of good health and sunlight! Maybe you can get into it a little more and then keep up with it more after that. I don't love to exercise but I usually feel better when I do it, so I just make myself. And sometimes I give into my laziness. Good luck! :-)

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